“Lost to the world but never out of God’s sight”

(This is Neil.) The Very Reverend John Breck has a very good “Life in Christ” column that serves as a reminder that many of those we so easily dismiss while walking through a train station or passing by a tenement building are souls, and, as such, reflections of ourselves. I would say that his detail and his honesty – Father Breck does not have to romanticize the destitute or imagine happy resolutions to their stories in order to grasp their humanity – make this piece memorable:

It took a personal encounter for me finally to put a face on some of these lost souls. Sunday mornings at the St Alexander Nevsky cathedral in Paris an old woman used to sit on the ledge by the sidewalk and wait for some exiting parishioner to put a coin into her hand. Her coat was tattered, her hair was unkempt, and her hunched body betrayed her depression. One day we struck up a conversation with her. Her family had fled Russia following the October Revolution, and she had been brought up in France. We discovered that she was highly cultured and spoke several languages. Details she gradually shared with us offered a picture of someone who had suffered immensely. Somehow she had been abandoned, and like many “clochards” of the street, she kept alive in the winter by sleeping on a grate that was warmed by steam from below and by eating whatever she could find, usually in garbage cans stashed behind local restaurants. This woman, though (and to my shame, I’ve forgotten her name), was a person, a presence. She had her own history, her own fears, sacrifices, loves, and occasional joys. There was nothing irritating or aggressive about her to make us want to turn away; she did nothing to make us put up our guard or feel resentful around her. She just sat on that cement ledge after Sunday Liturgy, hoping someone would see in her something other than another annoying beggar. See in her a person – someone down on their luck, unable to do much more than subsist – yet a person.

An old clochard used to hang out near the Patriarchal parish in the rue Saint Victor on the Left Bank, a small storefront church located in what used to be an Oriental restaurant. It’s filled with icons by one of its most well-known and gifted parishioners, Leonid Ouspensky. One day, somebody in that humble community had the idea, the blessed inspiration, to invite the clochard into a service. As it was related to me, he reluctantly accepted, entered the building and kept to the rear, more or less out of sight. To the mild surprise of some who recognized him, he came back, again and again. Some time later, he was chrismated. The clochard had become an Orthodox Christian, and as far as I know, he remains such today. A life turned around. A lost soul, found.

I’m not sure where I’m going with this, but I think I need a reminder. I need to remember that these people, so often embarrassing, so easily dismissed, are God’s children, loved by the Creator who made them in His own image. And whether they hear it or not, they are called – invited and implored – to journey toward His “likeness,” to become holy as He is holy, to welcome His love into their life and allow that love to transform everything in and about them.

These lost souls are persons, beings of infinite value and worthy of boundless respect, understanding and compassion. Many of them, certainly, would laugh at that, because life is tough, and talk of God’s love and mercy sounds phony and hollow. Or in their drug induced state of numbness they simply can’t relate to it, or don’t want to. But that doesn’t diminish the reality, the truth of it. It doesn’t make them any less human, any less worthy of being treated as we ourselves want to be treated. It doesn’t change the fact that they are souls, lost to the world but never out of God’s sight, never abandoned by the Crucified One.

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Todd lives in Minnesota, serving a Catholic parish as a lay minister.
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